Today i woke up @ 7 but i stayed in bed till 3 just thinking about the past week and everything that has happened so far.

And i realised that i had walked through five weeks of SH life without the people that mattered to me in JH,

that i missed my ex-c36 classmates (some of them, at least),

that while i thought i knew what i was doing all along, maybe this time, i didn't make the right choice,

maybe i'll grow to regret this a few years down the road,

maybe i didn't know what i really wanted (or had) till it was gone.

And cliche as that sounds, it really stings when you realise you've let the thing most important to you slip away. When you've been too busy to notice it quietly leave your side, until one day everything starts to build up and you've nobody to turn to, you feel like there's this part of you that doesn't exist anymore.

Because when you left, you took a part of me with you.

I never got it back. I don't think i ever will.

But thanks for the memories :) If i don't get to walk on with all of me intact, i know you'll keep that part of me safe for me. Maybe i'll walk down my life with you for a little while longer.

Two more years.
Found the time to talk to you the past few days & it made me realise how much i missed you.

Maybe this is something i say to make me feel all right. But it comes from my heart and i hope like hell that you know i'm talking to you because you were there for me for so long & there's a snowball's chance in hell that i'm ever going to forget you.

I thought about it for eight hours. Then i surfed youtube.com & found this:


Yesterday - Leona Lewis


Lyrics open in new window

We've been walking around in circles for some time,
And i think we should head for the finish line ;



pmz